Friday gratitude

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Hello Friday!  You know when you have those weeks where you are just brilliant at adulting, tick tons off your to-do list and are sitting on a Friday afternoon feeling smug and accomplished?  Well that isn’t me today.  Maybe next week hey?

I had the best birthday weekend and then it was back to reality on Monday (I do have some more leave planned so I musn’t complain).

There was alot of wine consumed this week.  I’m actually a bit embarressed about the amount of recycling I need to sort out.  Really lazy dinners.  Not alot of gym.  I spent alot of my week feeling overly sensitive to absolute nonsense and just incapable of releasing things from the past and moving on.

Let it go is a Disney song and sadly not my current motto.


Friday means linking up with the Peaceful Posse – Lindsay Charlotte and Beth with a weekly gratitude list.

  • Having a great time in Wilderness for my birthday weekend.  If you are ever in South Africa I highly recommend visiting the Garden Route for an amazing time.  We go a few times a year to Wilderness and love every moment.
  • Getting spoilt with lovely gifts.  Got a new Pandora charm for my bracelet from hubby as well as two bouquets of roses.
  • The weather was awesome for most of the weekend – sunny and warm.  We’d expected rain and it only started late Saturday afternoon.  Being from Cape Town and having this drought we never complain when there is rain but sunny weather on my birthday just makes me smile!
  • Bowls with my in-laws on Monday after work.  Lots of fun.
  • Dinner afterwards.
  • My Mother-in-law having a good Dr’s visit this week.  She goes every 6 months for a check up after her cancer scare in 2017.
  • Cooler weather today.  Yesterday was unbearably hot.
  • Lastly and this is a personal one.  I took a big step and have decided that I will go and chat to someone about my anxiety and low moods which arrive with little warning.  Sometimes they flatten me and lately they seem to take longer to leave.  It doesn’t seem like any amount of yoga, meditation, tea, healthy eating, exercise, creative writing and wine (obviously not all at the same time) is helping me be my best self.  And I despise the fact I take it out on those I love the most.  I’d appreciate any advice that any of you would like to share.  You don’t have to post in the comments (if you prefer) you can contact me via my blog, message me on FB, drop an e-mail, whatever is easier.  Just any advice that you found helpful or would recommend.  I’ve spent years thinking this will go away on its own and it just isn’t.



18 thoughts on “Friday gratitude

  1. Katie Arnold says:

    I think it’s great that you’ve decided to go talk to someone about your anxiety. I really do find that so helpful. Also, it’s great that you’re doing meditation and yoga, but I’m curious if the consistency is there? Are you committing to it every day or just a couple times a week? I find I need that daily practice to keep me in a good space. Also, I would suggest paying attention to anything that may be triggering to those moments. I’ve definitely found that alcohol is a trigger for my anxiety (and I already don’t drink much but I’m more mindful to avoid if I find I’m in more of an anxious/stressed time).


    • says:

      I admit the consistency is currently not there with my yoga and meditation. I keep meaning to do it more often (and make a note of it each time) and then track my moods afterwards and then life gets busy…..
      Thinking about it, I do sometimes feel worse after a couple of glasses of wine. It seems to relax me (one glass) but anything more can sometimes make me feel agitated.
      Making time for yoga is essential for me – I have it as a goal this month and thank you for the reminder. I need to get out my mat and just do it. Starting today.


  2. Beth says:

    Hey lady – good for you on going to talk to someone about your anxiety and low moods – I started doing that this year too and it’s already helped more than I can say. Hang in there and if you ever want to talk, I’m willing to listen!

    Other than that I’m glad your mother-in-law had a good doctor visit and I’m glad you had a good birthday weekend! I hope this coming weekend is just as good!


    • says:

      Thanks so much Beth – I appreciate that and will take you up on the offer. I have a couple of questions that I’m going to take along with me and will send you a message during the week. I am glad that you are talking to someone about this and that it is helping you.

      We are so pleased with my mother-in-law’s visit to the Dr. She’ll have to go every 6 months but each good visit brings with it gratitude that they caught the cancer in time and she is okay. She is one tough lady and quite an inspiration.


  3. Eli Pacheco says:

    I’d raise a glass to your mother-in-law’s good visit! Those are victories, my friend. Happy to hear it. As for No. 10: Bravo for your bravery and taking care of yourself. Those things all help, but sometimes we need a little something more.

    Counseling and even a mild antidepressant have been in my past. They make a huge difference, and the fact that you’re seeking a change is a big deal. You’ll see how much you’re helping yourself with that approach.

    Sending good vibes and energy to you, my friend. You’re precious to us.


    • says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words Eli. As always I’m so grateful for the lovely friends I’ve met through blogging. Have wanted to write about this for a while and decided yesterday that my blog is my safe little space and I’m going to share.

      I’m glad that you were able to find what worked for you and that they made a difference. I have put this off for too long and making the decision this week feels like such a good one and a huge step in the right direction.

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  4. Sara Strand says:

    First up, if there is anyone who is a huge advocate for reaching out for help, it’s ME. So don’t feel like a weirdo, you can always email me and we’ll chat it up. I didn’t realize being irritable and angry over completely stupid stuff was a sign of anxiety and/or depression. I actually take a mood stabilizer (also sometimes called an anti-psychotic but DON’T LET THAT FREAK YOU OUT!) and it is literally the best thing in the world. I feel like a completely different person. Is it a cure all? Nope. I still have moments but I’m able to have that extra beat or two to calm myself down before I throw a cup. You can do this. Hugs, friend!


    • says:

      Thank you so much Sara – I will definitely be e-mailing you in the week to chat and any advice you’d like to share is most welcome. This week has just been one long lesson in the fact I need to go make an appointment and see how better to handle this anxiety/low mood that arrives with zero warning. I feel like my endless worrying over rubbish is now becoming so time consuming it has to be addressed.
      Thank you and sending big hugs back


  5. Charlotte says:

    Oh, man—your last bullet hit me in the feels today/ you know, I’ve struggled off and on for years with crippling anxiety and some days it just grows worse as the day progresses. I never wish it upon anyone and am so sad to hear that you are struggling with this as well right now. Medication has helped me tremendously, at least to stabilize some of those high highs and low lows, and lately CBD oil has really improved my depression and anxiety. I had to admit to myself that it’ll likely be with me forever. That’s not comforting to know, BUT I find I’m not trying all the time to make it go away which for me was so incredibly exhausting. I’m always here if you want to chat: and sending all my ❤️❤️❤️


    • says:

      I remember you mentioning being one in five on your blog a while ago and I’m sorry that you are finding your anxiety getting worse on some days. I’ve noticed that more and more people are open about their battles (and I’m finally getting there).
      I think I just assumed (or hoped) it would go away on its own. Looking back I was a very anxious child and even in school I used to think this was a phase I’d grow out of. But it just hasn’t happened. This week was a wake up call and now I’m ready to make an appointment and address this.
      And thank you – I have some questions which I’m compiling and will definitely send you a message soon
      I’m glad that you found medication that is helping you and CBD oil (I will google this now).
      ❤ ❤ ❤


  6. Melissa @ Always, Lissa says:

    I have always wanted to go to South Africa, maybe one day I will. But I marked down your recommendation! As far as anxiety, funny enough I have a post publishing in a couple hours about anxiety and ideas on what to do when you’re dealing with it. A couple things I can recommend. There is a site called imalive that has volunteers you can speak with free. If they are full, 7cups does the same thing. PLUS they also offer affordable counseling starting at $33 (us) a week. Or there is an app called wysa. It’s a free app and is a therapy penguin. Sounds silly but I’ve used it a few times when I just needed to talk to someone late at night. It comes programmed with about 40 conversations and also has some meditation exercises. You can make in-app purchases to unlock more if the free ones help. I hope you find a way to get a handle on your anxiety. I know how rough it can be. If you ever need to vent, I’ve been told I’m a good listener.


    • says:

      The Garden Route is one of our favourite places to visit and we try go a few times each year. It is a 5 hour drive for us but well worth it. I have lots more recommendations so just shout if you are ever visiting South Africa 🙂

      Thank you so much for all the recommendations – that app sounds great and the websites as well. Going to check this out now.
      I am trying meditation but I admit I don’t do it often enough – I need to make the time (set aside daily quiet time) and just do it.
      Going to go look for your blog post now. Thank you again.


  7. Lauren Becker says:

    I’m glad you had a nice birthday weekend and the weather was good. Yay for fab presents too. I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with your anxiety, and I think it’s great that you are going to talk to someone about it. I’ve been on medicine for years now, but I know that’s not for everyone – it’s for my anxiety and depression though. I’m planning on seeing a therapist too though.



    • says:

      Loads of rain was predicted but we ended up having hot weather for most of the time – just some rain on the Saturday late in the afternoon 🙂

      I’m glad that you’ve found something that works for your anxiety and depression – I’ve heard that some people take a while to find what works for them. That is great that you are also going to see a Therapist and I hope it goes well.
      I’m finding that when one opens up about how they are feeling, there is a lot of support and advice and I’m very grateful to everyone who has left lovely, kind messages.


  8. San says:

    It’s the right move to reach out for help. And you might want to consider medication (if that’s advised)… I know many people who suffered silently until they finally took the step asking for help and they’ve been better for it! I applaud you for taking that step!


  9. Lindsay says:

    Sounds like you had an AMAZING birthday. 🙂 Well deserves my friend. I’m also proud you’re going to talk to someone … takes balls to get the courage to do so but talking to a neutral person is a good thing and getting that heaviness and weight off your chest and back helps loads. Take care of yourself, love.

    Also, great news on the doctors visit!!



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