I’m blaming Mercury retrograde

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After a fabulous weekend in Wilderness (more about that later) I should be feeling rested and pleased that we enjoyed a wonderful getaway up the Garden Route.  Instead I’m sitting sulking, with the heater on full blast, feeling all sorts of negativity and we will not mention the TIREDNESS.

I got to my desk this morning, switched on my pc and sipped my tea while going through e-mails and saw one from Lecy https://asimplergrace.blogspot.co.za/ where she mentioned Mercury Retrograde in her newsletter.

And I thought Well there you have it!  I’m going to attribute my appalling bad mood to a planet.  I barely slept last night, got little more on Saturday.  I’ve had awful dreams that feel so real.  I’m cranky.  I have no appetite and don’t even feel like drinking tea!

I’m overly sensitive to everything right now – I lost my cool over something SO stupid and cannot just laugh at it – I’m too cross!  Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

Apparently Mercury retrograde started on Thursday which was when I started feeling awfully anxious.  It came from nowhere in the afternoon – this feeling of worry that I couldn’t shake.  I did manage to sleep well on Thursday and Friday and because we were away celebrating hubby’s birthday I was focused on good things and felt more relaxed.  But the moment we got closer to Cape Town yesterday this wave of unease swallowed me up.

I’m awful in a bad mood.  I’m not implying I’m competition to a saint when I’m in a good mood (far from it) but I’m really not very nice (understatement) when I’m in a foul mood.

I’m going to try shift this awful space I’m in right now and go to gym after work.  Have a healthy dinner.  Drink more water.  Be nice to myself.  Be nice to those still talking to me!

What about you?  Have you found you are feeling different these past few days?  If so, how did you deal with it?

xx

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Humpday confessions

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This is a 4 day week for me yet it seems to be taking ages for Thursday (and my 3 day weekend to arrive).  Anyway time for confessions.

#1  I keep saying I’m going to spend less time on social media but that is as far as it goes.  One of the things I love about Facebook is the Peaceful Posse and catching up with fellow bloggers.

But there are things about FB that don’t bring joy and I’m wasting precious time getting irritated or annoyed.  I guess I could update settings or have offline days but how many of us are able to do this?

#2  On Monday I had such good intentions to go to gym then have a super healthy dinner.  Did neither.

#3  The clutterbug in me did some clearing out at work the other day.  I tidied my drawers and now actually have space to put things in them.  I still don’t know if I’m proud or secretly horrified at how much junk I’ve stored in my desk but it is lovely now that drawers can close properly!

#4  Recently I’ve guessed the ending to 2 books, a horror movie and the episode of Station 19 which I watched last night.  I love twists in a book or movie and predicting the outcome ruins it.

#5  I love the sitcom “The Goldbergs” and am still laughing at the episode where the family go out for Erica’s birthday and make numerous scenes in the restaurant.  I’m known for wanting to move to different tables because it is too hot or too cold and knowing Beverley Goldberg can relate makes me feel so much better 🙂

What about you?  What do you want to get off your chest?

xx

If you and I had coffee

I always enjoy these sorts of posts which Lecy https://asimplergrace.blogspot.co.za/ does.  One writes about what they would discuss if they met a friend for coffee.  Any thoughts or concerns are shared and it is an enjoyable way to open up about what is on your mind.

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If we met for coffee, I’d suggest one of my favourite places that do the best toasted sandwiches.  We’ll request a table by the window and sit warming up as the sun streams in and I’ll ask how you’ve been and what you got up to over the weekend.

I’d show you the pictures I took over the weekend in Greyton.  We spent another weekend in Hermanus and it was such a treat to get warm weather in the middle of winter.  Saturday we drove through to Greyton and found a stunning restaurant where we ate outside.  I’d show you some pictures I took over the weekend while we wait for our coffee to arrive.

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T-shirts in winter – that is how warm it was!

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If we met for coffee I’d tell you that the drought is really getting me down and I’m finding the 50 litres per day tricky at times.  I used to moan about laundry – try having a full laundry basket and water restrictions.  Before the drought I’d enjoy a bath after a long day.  I’d read a book and sip tea.  Or wine – lets be honest the choice of refreshment depended on the day I’d had.  I cannot do that in a start-stop shower while I worry if I’ve gone over 90 seconds.  Washing dishes and saving every drop.  Not flushing whenever possible (and then using grey water saved from around the house.  It isn’t fun.  Not having water in the taps in the office bathroom toilets.  Hello to buying loads of wet wipes.  It has been like this (50 litres per person) since 1st February but feels alot longer.

I’d apologise for moaning and we’d sip our coffee and focus on positive things.  Dam levels are rising and we’ve had amazing rain, I need to remember this.

We’d order our lunch and I’d recommend my favourite toasted sandwich – chicken mayo, bacon and avo (delicious combo).  While we wait for our food, you’d tell me about work and what you are enjoying at the moment.

We’d talk about My Kitchen Rules South Africa – I love reality shows and cooking programmes so combine the two and I’m watching every episode!  Just finished watching the Australian My Kitchen Rules.

We’d eat our lunch and I’d tell you that I’m looking forward to Mark’s birthday (I love celebrating my husband’s birthday as much as my own).  I’m doing a countdown until his special day (4 more sleeps). ❤

As the bill arrives, we’d say goodbye and agree to meet again soon.  Next time, you choose the place 🙂

xx

Things I don’t justify #1

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I had an idea of doing a post of things I refuse to explain or justify but it ended up being an incredibly long waffle.  So I’ve decided to break the topics up and when I feel a soapbox moment coming on, the material is ready for posting.

Number 1 in my “Series of things I don’t justify” is my 9-5.

I cannot be the only person that has run into job snobs over the years.  To sum it up this is someone that thinks what they do is so much more important and worthy than what  those around them do for a living.

They like to look down on others, for example some cannot imagine office life and spending the day in front of a computer.  “So soul sucking” said a job snob I used to know.  She felt she deserved “something purely creative” and wasn’t going to settle for less (interesting fact:  she is still looking for the perfect job to present itself to her).   My job isn’t creative at all.  I need accuracy, the ability to work to deadlines and juggle tasks when needed.  I require a massive memory and attention to detail is essential.  So when I’ve had a long day I don’t need an even longer Whatsapp from a job snob telling me about their search for something creative and fulfilling as they continue to find themselves “as they could never sit in an office and lose their soul”

I very much still have my soul.  But patience for such snobbery?  Not so much.

Some job snobs work for themselves and cannot imagine what having a boss is about (“people give you work and you do it and then you get more”) said a self-employed friend of a friend in wide-eyed horror.  Seriously – I wish I was joking but I’m not.  The conversation was about deadlines but I might as well have been explaining life on Mars.

Some job snobs don’t work at all and want to think this makes them superior (“I could never deal with office politics” and “I don’t know how you do it”)  Side note:  I do it because I enjoy the financial independence working gives me.  I’m good at what I do.  I enjoy it.  I also find things like a salary and pension to be quite handy.

I’m weird like that.

I’ve learnt to ignore job snobs because it isn’t worth your time actually engaging with someone that thinks what they do (or don’t do) makes them better than others.  Not everyone can have the career they dreamt about growing up.  Not everyone gets the opportunity or has parents to support them while they decide what they really want to pursue.  I see many people who may not be doing their ultimate dream job but getting on with it and making a success of the path they are on.  I take my hat off to people who study part-time while working – it isn’t easy – I know!  I tried it years ago and it is really difficult.

In a nutshell, I won’t justify my career or be talked down by someone who thinks that their journey is so much more important and fulfilling because they had more options before they chose it.

What about you?  Have you ever encountered this form of snobbery?

xx

Weekend recap

I haven’t done a weekend recap in a while and this past one was so good that it deserves a post of its own.

It has been so cold lately that I’ve been tempted to just hibernate and emerge when spring arrives.  Hubby and I were talking the other evening about spending a night somewhere and last week we decided to make a weekend out of it.  We chose Hermanus and I tell you, it was just what I needed.

I am rationing out my leave at the moment because I’ve used quite a bit and need some for later in the year.  So I got to work early on Friday and made up some hours so I could leave early.  I have the best boss ever – and told him we were hoping to leave early to get ahead of the traffic and he said to go ahead!

Well we were in Hermanus at 3:30pm!  Checked in and did grocery shopping before relaxing with a drink on the balcony.  I could feel the weeks of stress and worrying melting away as we sat and laughed together at random things and smiled thinking of our weekend ahead.  Got comfy in the lounge and watched some tennis – so proud of Anderson!

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Mark made us a braai which was so delicious!  We had puddings from Woolies and then a bath.  Yes a bath.  With water restrictions in Cape Town being at level 6B bathing is a distant memory and we only have stop start showers.  So you can imagine how a bubble bath felt!  It.  Was.  Pure.  Bliss.

We slept so well and barely heard the rain in the night.

Woke up the next morning and Mark went to Harold Porter National Botanical Garden to do a hike and photograph a waterfall (more on this shortly).  I stayed in bed reading and drinking tea.

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I loved the trees outside the bedroom and could hear the drizzle on and off while I read.

I was hoping Mark was getting the photos he wanted of the waterfall.  He returned late morning very happy with the hike he’d done and the photos.

Now regarding the hike and waterfall photography!  I’m used to him getting back from these trips cold and wet but this time he had slipped on a rock that moved, scraped his shin, landed hard on his ribs and returned cold, wet, bruised and sore.  I did what I could to clean the huge scrape and put Mark’s clothes in front of the heater while we had breakfast.  Never a dull moment!

Below is a pic Mark took at Kleinmond early in the morning.

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After breakfast we took a drive to Gansbaai.

Selfie below 🙂

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Hermanus waves.

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This is at Danger Point.

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Gansbaai.

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We came back and watched some rugby before another fabulous braai.

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The next morning Mark returned to get some more photos of the waterfall (promising to be careful after my speech on safety).  He returned alot drier and had only one wet shoe (which dried quickly thanks to the heater).

We had a slow breakfast and showered before packing up and making our way home.

This weekend was just what I needed.  I loved it and cannot wait to go back.  Hubby agrees and says he’ll pack his wellingtons in next time so his feet stay dry!

The stress with my mother has really taken its toll on me lately.  It is impossible to be in two places at once and we were not the ones who moved.  We’ve made a huge effort visiting and driving the distance and even after numerous trips and endless worrying I’m still not given the full story with health issues and updates.

I simply cannot anymore.  I’ve worried myself sick and all I’ve ever asked was to be given honest updates and be kept in the loop.  Too much to ask and I cannot let it drain me anymore.

The photos of the waterfall at Harold Porter were amazing and we are having one printed and put on our wall at home – a reminder of a fantastic weekend.

xx

Book review: The Breakdown by B.A Paris

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It is not often I finish reading a book in 3 days.  It was during a rainy weekend and perfectly timed for this page-turning psychological thriller.

Cass is a teacher who has just celebrated the end of term with colleagues.  A storm starts just as she is leaving to go home.  Her husband, Matthew warns her not to take the shortcut which goes past the woods.

She doesn’t listen.

As she is driving in the storm she sees a car broken down and stops alongside it.  Cass can see a lady inside but when she doesn’t get out, Cass drives on and tells herself that she’ll phone for help when she is home.

Except she forgets.

When she wakes up the next morning, she hears that a woman was murdered on that road the night before.  Feeling guilty that she didn’t stop and help, Cass pretends that she travelled a different way home.  She keeps her guilty secret to herself but her horror at what happened is magnified when she realises she knew the victim.

Then things start happening that make Cass question her sanity.  There are silent phone calls.  A pram she didn’t order is delivered to her home.  She finds a knife matching the description of the one used in the murder in her kitchen (but it dissapears before she can show Matthew).  She fears that she is losing her mind as she starts forgetting simple things.

Readers will find a couple of twists and I did guess part of the ending (I had suspected something early on in the book and turned out to be right).  However there was a big surprise that I didn’t see until the very end.

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Weekly gratitude

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First Friday in July – where is the year going to?  We are in the middle of winter and have been having some amazing rain.  Also there is snow on the mountains which definitely adds to the chill!  Really enjoying the heater in our office (I switch it on in the mornings before my PC) and it makes such a difference.

As it is Friday, I’m linking up with Lindsay http://theflynnigans.com/ Charlotte http://mypixieblog.com/ and Beth http://coffeeuntilcocktailsblog.com/ with my Friday gratitude list:

  • Rain and so much of it lately!  Dam levels are rising and looking so much better than last year this time.
  • Mark making the most delicious butter chicken – it is perfect in this cold weather.
  • Date night on Tuesday.
  • Goodreads – finally I have an organised way of keeping a list of books I want to read.  So much easier than writing them on pieces of paper I lose and then standing in a bookshop saying “Now I don’t remember the author or full title but I know what it is about”
  • Tea.  I love tea all year round but it tastes so good in winter.
  • Books that are so good, you cannot put them down. I read “The break down” by B A Paris and finished it in 3 days.  It was such a page turner.
  • Ending work an hour early yesterday while Mark had a late meeting.  I came home and put the kettle on.  Since the sun was shining and it wasn’t freezing, I had tea outside on the bench and read a bit.  Then I did some creative writing and when Mark got home we went out for dinner.  Delicious burgers just made it a really good Thursday 🙂
  • The cactus plant in our garden is looking rather fancy with the flowers – couldn’t resist a pic
  • Learning to make peace with an upsetting situation.  No matter what I do or how much I care, it will never be enough for certain family members.  After 35 years – why am I surprised?
  • The weekend being less than 3 hours away.

xx

Sentence a day: June edition

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I got this idea from Lindsay  http://theflynnigans.com  You sum up a month with a sentence (sometimes more) per day.  It is basically a snapshot of your month!  Remembering a month day by day is not easy so I keep an electronic record and each day just add the previous day’s highlight or happenings and there you go – 30 days condensed.

Friday 1st June 2018:  Weekend – hooray! Had the most delicious butter chicken for dinner – awesome start to the weekend.

Saturday 2nd June 2018:  Cycling today is out because of the rain.  Had breakfast out and then did a bit of shopping.

Sunday 3rd June 2018:  Hubby went to Kirstenbosch early this morning and I read and drank tea in bed.  We made brunch when hubby got back and then in the afternoon went to gym.  I ran 4 km’s, came home to change and then went to the movies.  Watched “Life of the party” with Melissa McCarthy – brilliant movie.  Had dinner at Cattle Baron and came home for dessert (Dunkin Donuts).

Monday 4th June 2018:  Busy day, had an easy but relatively healthy dinner and watched My Kitchen Rules South Africa.

Tuesday 5th June 2018:  We went to the butcher after work, then to gym and afterwards did grocery shopping.

Wednesday 6th June 2018:  Warm day, said goodbye dry month and had drinks outside

Thursday 7th June 2018:  My Mom got most of her test results and they are clear.  So so so so extremely relieved!!

Friday 8th June 2018:   Delicious curry for dinner – I think this is my new favourite dinner.  Perfect for the cold weather.

Saturday 9th June 2018:  Rain and lots of it!  It cleared up for a bit in the afternoon and Mark went to Kirstenbosch to get a landscape photo (it looked awesome).  I pottered around catching up on laundry and started a James Patterson book (The store).  Poured more with rain later in the afternoon.

Sunday 10th June 2018:  Went to Langebaan and cycled 32 km’s.  Not my best cycle – distance or speed.  Tried a really steep hill and was exhausted afterwards.  Came home and had a late lunch and chilled watching “Life in Pieces”, caught up on “My Kitchen Rules Australia”.

Monday 11th June 2018:  Busy day so we had an easy supper after work.  Mark had work to do so I watched a horror (“Visions”) while I did some ironing.  I guessed the ending very quickly – think I’ve seen too many horrors and thrillers!

Tuesday 12th June 2018:  Ran 4.2 km’s after work.

Wednesday 13th June 2018:  Lunch with a friend from work, ended an hour early and had dinner at Cattle Baron.

Thursday 14th June 2018:  Rain!

Friday 15th June 2018:  Start of FIFA World Cup.  Got snacks after work to enjoy while we watched the soccer.

Saturday 16th June 2018:  Cycled 42 km’s and had lunch at Ginja Beanz in Langebaan.

Sunday 17th June 2018:  Read with tea in bed and then went for brunch at Fraiche Ayres. Went to play squash in the afternoon – I’m so out of practice!

Monday 18th June 2018:  Went to do a quick grocery shop after work and had an easy dinner.  Frozen yoghurt for dessert.

Tuesday 19th June 2018:  Cold and rainy.  Went to have dinner at Cattle Baron.

Wednesday 20th June 2018:  Ran 4km’s after work.

Thursday 21st June 2018: So cold! Thank goodness for heaters.

Friday 22nd June 2018:  Delicious curry for supper – seems to be our weekend routine at the moment and I love it! So glad the weekend is here and can sleep late for 2 mornings.

Saturday 23rd June 2018:  Hubby went to Kirstenbosch and Newlands to take more landscape photos and I drank tea and read in bed.  We had lunch at Rambling Rose and then took a drive to Cape Point.  We both hadn’t been in so many years and even in the rain it was stunning.

Sunday 24th June 2018:  Went shopping and had lunch with a friend.  Woolies had some amazing promotions on and I saved quite a lot while stocking up on new pajamas and a cardigan.

Monday 25th June 2018:  Heard my Mom is back in hospital and being treated for a UTI while they run more tests.  Hopefully she can leave after 5 days.  Had dinner (sushi) with a friend from work and her cousin.

Tuesday 26th June 2018:  Cleaned after work and then treated ourselves to dinner out.

Wednesday 27th June 2018:  Horrible headache for most of the day.

Thursday 28th June 2018:  My Mom could leave the hospital today.  I ran 4.2km’s after work.

Friday 29th June 2018:  Friday at last.  Had a delicious curry for dinner.

Saturday 30th June 2018:  Had lunch at Rambling Rose and then took a drive to Cape Point.

So that was my month.  Reading back, I can see how often I mention food haha!

xx

July goals and mantras

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So here we are!  A new month has started and I love doing this monthly post and linking up with fabulous Peaceful Posse – Lindsay http://theflynnigans.com/ Charlotte http://mypixieblog.com/ and Beth http://coffeeuntilcocktailsblog.com/ as we list goals and mantras for the month ahead.

Okay, so June goals were:

  • Drive more often – Nope.
  • Read 3 books  Yes and I joined Goodreads (having so much fun!).  Shout if you are on there!
  • Continue healthy meal planning  Yes!
  • Make June a dry month – Not a chance.
  • Be more mindful – Getting there slowly.  It is a work in progress.

July goals are as follows:

  • Read 3 books
  • Update Goodreads with books I’ve read (have I mentioned in the last 5 minutes that I love this website?)
  • Blog 10 times
  • Do more creative writing
  • Drive more often
  • Meditate after a stressful day
  • Continue being mindful
  • Continue going to gym and don’t use winter as an excuse
  • Make hubby’s birthday at the end of the month awesome 🙂

Mantras for the month:

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xx