As I type this the Easter weekend is over and it is back to work. I’ve given my mantras a bit of thought for this month and they are:
My OLW for 2018 is release and I’ve done a rather crappy job of it so far. I’m really, really annoyed that I let nasty comments in and set up residence rent-free in my head. I’m cross with myself for letting someone get to me and bring out the worst in me. And I’m like this because of some throw away comment this person (who ironically didn’t give two thoughts about it afterwards) said to me. I couldn’t rise above the hurt and be the better person, I had to vent to those near and dear to me and all it has done is let this other person win. She’ll always be the way she is and I need to accept this and distance myself (in a polite way). It gets tricky because sometimes rude people like to hide behind the “didn’t mean it like that way” excuse and still expect to see you for dinners and other get togethers. And then you are the difficult one because you’d rather swim with a shark than see them. And it isn’t an old friend or a random person you can easily avoid.
Sometimes being a good person is difficult. I’m dissapointed in someone who I gave more credit to over the years because I thought we mutually respected each other. I looked at endless dinners and group holidays with rose tinted glasses – focused on the positives and swallowed down irritations. But late last year this person was beyond rude and I couldn’t find an excuse to justify her behaviour. I spent days telling myself “she didn’t mean it like that” and “she is going through stuff, try keep that in mind” But you know what? Loads of people go through things and don’t turn nasty or take it out on their relatives and in-laws. They are able to remain polite and show gratitude when those around them do nice things for them. Not insult them. Make stupid comments to belittle them. Then deny it before they think they can justify it.
Anyway, on to goals. My March goals were:
April goals are as follows: